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The Shadow of The Feminine

11 Nov 2011, by michelle in Uncategorized

As many of you already know, 11-11-11, represents an opening, a shift to a new way of living our lives.  In other words, this is a time to live with new and greater consciousness.  This shift in consciousness reiterates that how our world is currently functioning is not working.  We are at a time of transition.  Yet, what does this transition mean and how will it work?

According to Evolving Door Astrology (www.EvolvingDoor.ca), Regulus, a star that symbolizes the age of old patriarchy and male energy domination, is on the cusp of moving into Virgo.  This means we are transitioning to bring forward feminine energy.  As the world has shown, this shift isn’t easy.  There is breaking-down in order to build back up to create what will better serve the highest good.

 

The same type of breakdown is being called within you.  Each and every one of you is being guided to go within and see what actions, thoughts, beliefs and motives are no longer serving you.  As you do, you see how old unconscious patterns aren’t serving you.  Perhaps you consciously focus on bringing in more of the feminine by slowing down and honoring life.  At the same time, you know you have things that need to get done.  That masculine energy pulls on you that you need to serve more or must make money, which means you need to take action and have discipline.

For myself, the feminine and masculine energy has often felt like an internal tug of war.  For a while, I am fine putting my health and joy as a priority.  When I did, less work got done but, I was happier.  Yet, as less work got done, I became stressed about my family’s need for income coming through my work.  Suddenly, my masculine energy was in charge of me, filled with new visions and goals that I had to work hard and strive to meet.

The truth was my ego has gotten a hold of both my masculine and feminine energy.  My ego used the masculine energy as a whip, pulling on my internal dialogue that what I was doing was never enough.  Of course, I was not conscious of this.  Yet as I went in deeper I found my ego working me by saying “You are not good enough! Work harder!  You are not supporting your family!”  I would blindly follow the ego’s instructions and then would get totally burned out.

My feminine energy would be there to save me, telling me to take care of myself.  Yet, even though I thought I was consciously in my feminine energy, I was in my ego’s version.  In my ego’s version of the feminine, it is all about maintaining peace.  My motto was  “I am at peace and my life is an expression of peace.”  Yet this isn’t maintainable either – at least not in my family.  I have kids, husband and work, all of which have their needs and struggles that absolutely collide head on with my peace, no matter how hard I tried.

It wasn’t until I embraced the shadow of the feminine and the duality of all, that I was able to allow myself to more deeply BE.  To BE, is to allow the shadow of the feminine to come through and TRUST!  The shadow of the feminine is breaking down what isn’t working within us and in our lives – the absolute opposite of peace!  This creates feelings such as overwhelm, a sense of loss and a desire to cling onto what you know.  You’ll want to turn to your masculine energy to fix and strive for better or for more.  Yet consciously bringing in the feminine means to allow for the break down and then trust.  BE.  Create the space for what wants to come forward through flow rather than automatically strive to make it better.

Your ego has you believe you get closer to your desires when you strive.  This is the masculine energy that has dominated us and lives deep within all our psyches.  Yet if you look back on your life, you will find that some of your greatest gifts happened when you did not have expectations – perhaps when expectations were even gone.

For me, when I was least expecting a relationship is when I met my husband.  When I was at a low with my career and was ready to give up, is when my first book was birthed.  I was unconscious of the feminine energy at work in those cases.  I was not aware how I was broken down in order to make room for my desires.

Now we are being called to allow her to work through us consciously.  To actually support her to breakdown, let go, and listen.  This is the work of 11-11-11, the opening, the feminine energy that is coming through in the world.  This is our challenge.  Yet the sooner we jump into her shadow, the more we open ourselves to the absolute miracles she brings forward within each of our lives.

Stay attuned to your being-ness and your emotions. They are a gateway, present to support you to make this internal shift.  In doing so, you are more accessible to become part of the miracle making process that is so needed in our world!

With deep love for you, your magnificence and brilliance!

 

 

 

 

10 COMMENTS
  • Tara Collins

    You’ve put into words what I’ve been feeling, that push-pull, tug-shove, seesaw sensation. Thanks for today’s insight.

    • I am so glad that the article spoke to you Tara. You are not alone and this all has meaning. Thank you for being on this conscious path and for sharing!

  • Sara

    Michelle, this is exactly what I felt yesterday. I was in a state of extreme overwhelm after being sick for over a week along with my young kids being home sick for a week and my husband’s work schedule having him tied up all week. Being up at night with the kids and very low on sleep made everything seem even more overwhelming. Then I had scheduled two cleaning jobs, I clean homes, for the last 2 consecutive days. And one of them was not a fun space to clean :). I was so upset and discontent and really searching inside for answers. Why was I feeling like this? Where was my peace in the storm? I couldn’t find it. Then all of a sudden on my way to the not-so-fun cleaning job, I just felt inside a desire to stop trying to feel peaceful and just settle into what I was feeling and let it be. Feel tired, feel my aches and cold still lingering, feel discontent. And at the same time I felt so at home again in my body and gave myself permission to not force myself to put on a happy face, but let whatever was happening do it’s work and I trusted that it would all work itself out. It felt so genuine and so freeing. So I can totally relate to what you wrote so beautifully about the feminine and masculine under the control of the ego. It is great to experience being out of the struggle between the two. And how fun it is to be a part of the larger shift happening in our world!

    • Wow Sara, what a beautiful experience! I will be thinking of you the next time I have a cold!! So true that when you welcome all you are feeling you no longer are resisting. You are a beautiful part of this shift. Thank you so much for sharing!

  • Lisa Germanowski

    Your article was EXACTLY what I needed. I, too, have had an internal tug of war. I may need to reread this multiple times when I forget to let the process happen by alowing things to BE. THANK YOU.
    Lisa

    • Thanks Lisa. We all need reminding with allowing. This isn’t what we are used to but it is the way we are being called to surrender to. You knowing this puts you so far ahead of the curve. I can’t wait to hear what this leads you to creating in your life!

  • Connie

    So well said! You really have brought clarity to things or feelings I didn’t know how to express.

    • Thanks Connie – this voice is silent in most of us and is just now awakening. So glad to hear this expresses your feelings because this only bring further understanding to your inner process. The more you can be conscious of your inner process, the smoother the transition!

  • Caroline

    I REALLY like the way you described the Feminine and the state of affairs. Thanks.

    • Thanks Caroline. Times are a changing! The feminine voice is yearning to come through and most importantly to be understood. So glad you were able to be present to her voice!