Thank you for your courageousness as well. You are well on your way to accepting the darkness – congrats! It does take courage to look at our darkness and pray that others won’t judge us as we judge ourselves for our mistakes. I am actually going to be posting a blog on judgment because I believe this is where it stems. I love that you shared that your experience stuck with you for 21 years! That is a testimony that when we admit the darkness within us that there is no going back. It is burned in our memory – not to torture us but to remind us of the line which we do not want to go back to and cross.

Thank you so much for sharing! I hope to hear more from you – Michelle

Yes, I bet you have been there with twin 9 year old boys. Happy birthday to them! Thanks so much for sharing. I too love those strategies that ultimately give me a time out when the going gets rough. Usually those strategies work, which is why this unfortunate circumstance was so out of the ordinary in a not good way. For this reason, I wanted to share the humanness of not having those qualities of what we typically have like patience. When this happens and we are able to acknowledge the darkness for what it is, we are able to clearly see the personal line that we have crossed. When we do that is how we learn it is not good for us to cross it and enable ourselves with further reserves so not to cross it in the future. It sounds like that is exactly what you have learned to do as well.

Thanks so much for sharing and I hope to continue hearing more from you!
Michelle

Yes, humbled is exactly how I felt by the whole experience as well – to say the least. Nothing to do with Mercury though -LOL – I wish I could blame it on that. Just the Universe’s way of supporting me to shine the light on more darkness in order to foster further growth, compassion and humility. For those of you interested in Mercury, I ‘ll be writing a blog post soon!

Thanks Suzanne for sharing!
Michelle

Thank you for your honesty too. I agree, it is tough to look at these parts of us that we would rather not have people know about us. I believe that if we aren’t willing to the darkness unconsciously impacts our lives. We need to confront and admit to that part of us that is also our truth in order that we recognize the power we have to impact our lives in a negative way. Once we do, I believe we are able to more fully own our power in the positive way that we are meant to. I am also so glad to hear that you were able to accept your humanness and ultimately create more intimacy in your relationship. You found the gift amidst the rubble – Congrats!

Thanks for you comment – keep in touch!
Michelle

Hats off to you for choosing to stay home. For sure it is the hardest job What is so funny is that my boys had no ill thoughts at the time of trying to play me. They were just having a good time without realizing the impact on me. Thankfully, this generation of parents seems to get that yelling is not the answer, (at least when our rational minds are working). Yet, I wanted to share because I know all of us has had a time with children or with some other scenerio in which they lost it. We are going to have a moment in which we are not our best selves and the ego level of our emotions prevails. It is so important not to hide in shame in those moments. I feel it when we hide in our darkness, we lose the opportunity to define what doesn’t work for us in order to move forward.

Thank you for sharing your comments and thoughts. Keep them coming!

Michelle