Understanding the fear of speaking from an emotional consciousness viewpoint

Hi Michelle,

I have been following you and I want you to know it is an honor to be connected.   I live in India and inspire to become big. I have everything in me but two things stop me to attain my aspirations. First, I have a fear of public speaking that holds me back like anything. For last 5 years I have been trying to overcome the same but I still find me struggling with words and my thoughts when it comes to public speaking. The second problem is that after trying hard for anything I find myself deviating from that thing. I basically lack dedication. I read your page and thought to mail you. Hope you reply back and your suggestions help me.
Regards,
Sumit

 

Dear Sumit,

 

Let’s get a clear understanding about what fear is about from an emotional consciousness standpoint.  Fear is the voice of your ego.  Your essence/spirit/inner voice (whatever you prefer to call it) is the part of you that has aspirations to share your message.  Also, what you call a “lack of dedication” is also the voice of your ego.  There is nothing wrong with you.  You are simply allowing your ego to win because even though you work hard toward a goal, there is a part of you that fears the outcome. 

Right now your ego is winning, which indicates to me a very important aspect that you need to address.  You don’t believe enough in your essence.  There is a part of you that does but it isn’t enough because your ego is still winning.  You need to write down and give your rational mind and ego proof of what you have accomplished. 

 

Most importantly you need to continue to develop a deeper relationship that honors your inner voice more than you do the messages of your ego.  How do you demonstrate to your spirit that you listen, love and care for this vital aspect of you?  If you don’t or you push this part of you around with putting everything else in front of your spirit, you cannot expect your spirit to be strong enough to overcome your ego when you try to attain a goal.  Your fear will always be there as you evolve and grow.  You demonstrate your spirit is ready to make that leap when you essences is properly fueled by love and respect by you.  Then your spirit is more powerful and sees the truth to your fears.

Lastly, you are overly judgmental of yourself.  Maybe not in all areas but certainly when it comes to your career.  Remind yourself that every time you critique yourself, you diminish your relationship with your essence.  I would suggest seeking support that guides you to recognize the voice of your ego and tune into more the voice that your spirit sings.

Sending you much love on your journey!

Live Emotionally Conscious – Live Exceptionally Well,

Michelle

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You’ve Got to Get Dirty to Spring Clean Your Life!

I must admit, March is one of my least favorite months.  Here in Wisconsin, the weather isn’t quite as warm as I would like, days are gloomy and all I see around me is a lot of mud.  My twin boys attend a nature preschool, where they take long hikes and play outside for a good part of their day.  Their clothes come back filthy, which always guarantees another load of laundry for me to do. It would be easy to say to myself,  “Michelle, you just need to get out of here and get some sun.”  Luckily, I know that if I just looked at my feelings on a surface level, I would be blowing off a huge opportunity. 

As many of you have heard me share before, nature is a great teacher and this certainly applies to March.  Prior to spring, we are in more darkness than light.  What many are not aware of is how much our well-being imitates nature.  During those darker hours, we are being given a prime opportunity to look into the darkness of the shadows of our being.  By bringing our emotional shadows into our awareness, we shed light on that which we once feared. 

For me it is like clockwork ….when March comes I know I am being asked to get dirty.  Unlike my kids, my getting dirty is about shining light on that which I would rather ignore by attending to messages of my ego.  Let’s face it, in the short-term, blowing off these messages is just easier.  After all, life still feels good.  Why not just go with that?  Well, the reason why I don’t is because I know how to F.E.E.L.: Feel Every Emotion as Love™.

The concept of F.E.E.L™ is a shift in consciousness toward understanding our emotional well-being.  This emotional consciousness shift allows me to see beyond the limited understanding of our feelings that are based upon the ego.  In doing so, rather than go on with life feeling 85% good and 15% off, I consciously choose to bring up that 15% and see what that is all about.  Rather than stay with the surface of the situation ( in my case the weather) there is so much rich opportunity to discover what is really going on within me. 

Think about what you have to do prior to you planting seeds.  You have to clear the surface and dig up underneath.  You want that soil to be turned, shed light on that which has been buried and give it some air.  The same needs to happen within us.  And just like nature if you properly attend to the soil in which you plant your seeds, you will reap the rewards later!

So how do you begin?  First of all you have to trust yourself that you can handle the feeling underneath the surface of you.  You may avoid your feelings altogether because you have had negative experiences when an uncomfortable feeling is brought into your awareness.  There is a difference, however, when you consciously choose to bring up a negative feeling which is you are still in control.  When a feeling bursts out from you, you are in a reactionary state.  By consciously bringing an uncomfortable feeling into your awareness you can differentiate in your mind the messages that come with it that are from the ego (which will be deflating to you) and those that come from love ( which will support you to move forward with creating your ideal life!)  Having that information is priceless!  Now instead of 15 % struggling (or whatever that percentage is for you), you have clarity about what you need to do.  You also have experienced more of your power as you now have reclaimed 15% more of your energy and attention that can go toward fulfilling your life’s purpose and passions!

So before spring is sprung, I encourage you to allow yourself to get a little dirty this spring.  As you do, commend yourself for being willing to do what that vast majority won’t.  You are choosing an enlightened path which takes much courage. 

I just started with a new client this week and before we started she said, “I am ready to get dirty!” and I just had to laugh.   Boy was she right and the rewards she is already reaping from just one session will forever change her life.  Remind yourself that you too are worth it to F.E.E.L: Feel Every Emotion as Love!

Happy Digging!

Michelle